Le sigh.

I swore to myself I wold never do it again.

Get attached to someone.

 I thought I was doing so good, Not using the L word.

Not being all cuddly and clingy, needy and lovey dovey.

Then I log in this morning and I am stuck like this. 

Gerritt not online.

 No one is around so Keiser TP's me to a party on the Island.

 I scoot back and watch them dance, feeling like an outsider. 

I wonder to myself .. Why?

I feel alone I feel like my anchor has been cut.

Shit. I don't like this feeling.. 

Need to toughen up even more.

Bah..