Le sigh.

I swore to myself I wold never do it again.
Get attached to someone.
 I thought I was doing so good, Not using the L word.
Not being all cuddly and clingy, needy and lovey dovey.

Then I log in this morning and I am stuck like this. 
Gerritt not online.
 No one is around so Keiser TP's me to a party on the Island.
 I scoot back and watch them dance, feeling like an outsider. 
I wonder to myself .. Why?
I feel alone I feel like my anchor has been cut.
Shit. I don't like this feeling.. 
Need to toughen up even more.